a gentle reminder that you did well this year. you met new people, learned new things and felt new feelings. you did so many things that made you scared. you picked yourself up off the floor after feeling completely defeated or heartbroken. there were some really tough nights but you survived them all. you made people happy just by existing. you accepted many goodbyes but the serendipitous meetings made up for them. it was your own hard work that paid off but you always downplay it or compare yourself to others. that’s not fair on yourself. you’ve come so far from the first day of this year. you have more wisdom and strength now. yes, other people seem more “successful” but does that even matter? please don’t think so lowly of yourself to only think about your failures. 2018 was your year of growth. I hope you take a moment to be kind to yourself, and believe that 2019 will be even better.
sometimes i lay in bed with thoughts in my head and i don’t really mind if they explode positivity or negativity. sometimes i put on my headphones and turn on music to its maximum volume. usually sad songs that make me happy or rock music to fill me with the energy i don’t quite have. sometimes i like to stay on a comfy sofa full of blankets, in total darkness. it is me myself and i, and my little galaxies inside me. sometimes i love sunny days because they bring joy with flowers and sometimes i like rainy days, the sound of the rain, the wind that blows away my thoughts. sometimes i seem to be dead and sometimes i seem to be alive. sometimes i am so full and sometimes i am so empty. sometimes it all gets a little too much and sometimes not as much as i need
